MY RANDOM THOUGHTS

I admit, though reluctantly  That My writings seem clumsy I'm just but a beginner Taking chances, s cribbling away Lost in thoughts of what to write next. Obsessing over grammar and writing tools I have made the dictionary my friend, kind of Still learning within the confines of my comfort zone Putting my pen to paper while the world sleeps, well some. Occasionally, I churn out a great piece Fighting with self-deprecating criticism Toeing the line between happiness and sadness To not be misunderstood, would make my world go around. I write about you sometimes Sometimes, about no one at all A muse, do I have one? Hmmmm! Myself, maybe, Is that selfish? I do write for me, so... In my imagination,  I'm a sword-wielding empress I have conquered the world of fear I have cast aside self-doubt I have won the battle of bravery with grace I am dancing with my pen  In my castle made of paper. Though scared I'll fall on my face I stand here Letting the river of words flow...

As I sit here  In contemplation  I wonder  Do you hear me? Hands clasped together Eyes closed  I spiral Do you see me? Mind-expanding, unfolding Thoughts linger  I reminisce Am I sad? Head bowed down Face hidden I falter Am I afraid? Voice rings loud Standing up I project Am I angry? Arms wide open looking forward I embrace Am I free? Sound that reverberates Gut feeling I listen  Am I hopeful?     @Sue.Ketter

Some days, I miss you in waves Some days, I hear your voice sounding my name some days, I hear a song you would have loved  And I miss you, it's drowning. No one said it would be this hard. Today I am listless, listless, listless I want to know what heaven looks like How did you always know to call me when I needed it? Though your time here was short  I hope you see  How beautifully blooming we are, from whence you left us For you'll always be a part of who we are. Though gone you are from us I know You are home Thank you for your part in our journey Till we meet again.     @Sue.Ketter

I n whispers soft, your voice alights, Guiding steps through darkest nights. Though eyes strain in search of thee, In unseen realms, your presence be. To heed your call, a sacred vow, Though others question, wonder how. In their eyes, I'm deemed insane, Yet in your grace, I find my refrain. For in the dance of cosmic light, Your ways, a mystic, wondrous sight. As Ecclesiastes so aptly portrays, In your sovereignty, my heart sways. In courts divine, I choose to dwell, Where your mysteries sweetly swell. In the realm of flesh, I find no worth, But in your love, I find rebirth. So let them deem me mad, it's true, For crazed I am, for love of you. In your presence, I am whole, For you, oh God, are my very soul.     Winnie Cheruiyot

To understand how she got here  We must go back to the beginning To the girl who lived to make others happy To the girl who sank to hold them up  To the girl who loved  And lost herself to the ramblings of whom they told her to be. She'd forgotten about her dreams for too long So she thought to dream new dreams To transform from the entropy of her making    To leap into reckless abandon i nformed by fearless passion To catch up with the dream she believed was running from her. So she let go of all the words stuck in her throat And let them cascade over the blank pages In an intricately woven flow of locution To pick herself up in these moments To rediscover her place  To find herself in the abyss of the cosmos.      @Sue.Ketter

Today was a meeting of minds and kinship alike, We are bonded by fate, Our destinies aligned by the Heavens. We are comprised of strength and light,  And a little bit of wisdom, Our souls ring true, the sound of laughter lives here. We are but specs of dust, Blown together by wind.     @Sue.Ketter

Only I can decide who I am So I took a step forward Leaving the place that hugged me I decided, what I want to do, I will do now No more waiting for later, later made me complacent Leaping into the unknown, moving ahead to go back in time To be who I was meant to be. The universe will catch me, I hope My heart's pounding, I want to say a mile a minute but I'm over clichés There's a little T-rex in all of us apparently So I will roar through these pages To find my place in the vastness of space. Got lost for a while there, fitting in was not for me  Neither was standing out, yet not invisible either Like an elephant in the Arctic Who knows, maybe this elephant can survive the Arctic. I am born of love and loss and everything in between I have traveled far to come full circle I am become a revenant This purpose I seek, my soul embrace thee.     @Sue.Ketter