MY RANDOM THOUGHTS

I admit, though reluctantly  That My writings seem clumsy I'm just but a beginner Taking chances, s cribbling away Lost in thoughts of what to write next. Obsessing over grammar and writing tools I have made the dictionary my friend, kind of Still learning within the confines of my comfort zone Putting my pen to paper while the world sleeps, well some. Occasionally, I churn out a great piece Fighting with self-deprecating criticism Toeing the line between happiness and sadness To not be misunderstood, would make my world go around. I write about you sometimes Sometimes, about no one at all A muse, do I have one? Hmmmm! Myself, maybe, Is that selfish? I do write for me, so... In my imagination,  I'm a sword-wielding empress I have conquered the world of fear I have cast aside self-doubt I have won the battle of bravery with grace I am dancing with my pen  In my castle made of paper. Though scared I'll fall on my face I stand here Letting the river of words flow...

As I sit here  In contemplation  I wonder  Do you hear me? Hands clasped together Eyes closed  I spiral Do you see me? Mind-expanding, unfolding Thoughts linger  I reminisce Am I sad? Head bowed down Face hidden I falter Am I afraid? Voice rings loud Standing up I project Am I angry? Arms wide open looking forward I embrace Am I free? Sound that reverberates Gut feeling I listen  Am I hopeful?     @Sue.Ketter

Some days, I miss you in waves Some days, I hear your voice sounding my name some days, I hear a song you would have loved  And I miss you, it's drowning. No one said it would be this hard. Today I am listless, listless, listless I want to know what heaven looks like How did you always know to call me when I needed it? Though your time here was short  I hope you see  How beautifully blooming we are, from whence you left us For you'll always be a part of who we are. Though gone you are from us I know You are home Thank you for your part in our journey Till we meet again.     @Sue.Ketter

I n whispers soft, your voice alights, Guiding steps through darkest nights. Though eyes strain in search of thee, In unseen realms, your presence be. To heed your call, a sacred vow, Though others question, wonder how. In their eyes, I'm deemed insane, Yet in your grace, I find my refrain. For in the dance of cosmic light, Your ways, a mystic, wondrous sight. As Ecclesiastes so aptly portrays, In your sovereignty, my heart sways. In courts divine, I choose to dwell, Where your mysteries sweetly swell. In the realm of flesh, I find no worth, But in your love, I find rebirth. So let them deem me mad, it's true, For crazed I am, for love of you. In your presence, I am whole, For you, oh God, are my very soul.     Winnie Cheruiyot

To understand how she got here  We must go back to the beginning To the girl who lived to make others happy To the girl who sank to hold them up  To the girl who loved  And lost herself to the ramblings of whom they told her to be. She'd forgotten about her dreams for too long So she thought to dream new dreams To transform from the entropy of her making    To leap into reckless abandon i nformed by fearless passion To catch up with the dream she believed was running from her. So she let go of all the words stuck in her throat And let them cascade over the blank pages In an intricately woven flow of locution To pick herself up in these moments To rediscover her place  To find herself in the abyss of the cosmos.      @Sue.Ketter

Today was a meeting of minds and kinship alike, We are bonded by fate, Our destinies aligned by the Heavens. We are comprised of strength and light,  And a little bit of wisdom, Our souls ring true, the sound of laughter lives here. We are but specs of dust, Blown together by wind.     @Sue.Ketter

Only I can decide who I am So I took a step forward Leaving the place that hugged me I decided, what I want to do, I will do now No more waiting for later, later made me complacent Leaping into the unknown, moving ahead to go back in time To be who I was meant to be. The universe will catch me, I hope My heart's pounding, I want to say a mile a minute but I'm over clichés There's a little T-rex in all of us apparently So I will roar through these pages To find my place in the vastness of space. Got lost for a while there, fitting in was not for me  Neither was standing out, yet not invisible either Like an elephant in the Arctic Who knows, maybe this elephant can survive the Arctic. I am born of love and loss and everything in between I have traveled far to come full circle I am become a revenant This purpose I seek, my soul embrace thee.     @Sue.Ketter

For the most part  She was always moving  In never-ending loops.  She longed for a resting place,  But still, she kept moving.  Never did she notice  She had it all along    In the smile that reached her eyes,  The warmness of her voice,  The stillness of her gaze.   when she finally stops I hope she knows  She was always the resting place.     @Sue.Ketter

Night is my friend Words flow freely here. In the quiet silence Thoughts consume me. Have you seen me lately? I have been who I was. Did you notice, Or did it escape you? In the simple complexities of life I changed to remain the same, I know, baffles me too. Me, here, now I have not lost you yet, I am still and always me Have you seen me lately? I have been who I was, I am who I've been.     @Sue.Ketter

It takes time for me to act on ideas But when I finally do, I soar, maybe I have never hoped to be on any acme Nor did I dream of breaking any glass ceiling . I know my purpose And I resolve to live it These mountains I've climbed Gave me the strength I didn't think I had. So here I am Bearing myself in a place that makes me uncomfortable But hey, be uncomfortable with me No regrets is what I aim for And when my time comes, I'll say I lived.     @Sue.Ketter

Letters, words, concepts, Effortlessly coming together, Swaying to the dance of pen on paper, Boundlessly connected To the myriad of journeys taken, Flowing through the pages with grace.     @Sue.Ketter

There's a vast empty space Waiting to be filled, Made of stories and adventures, Thousands of little moments Strung together by time.     @Sue.Ketter

Remember  How you walked with grace, How you left smiles in your wake, How honored they were to know you, How you carried your crown effortlessly so.     @Sue.Ketter

She is the embodiment of victory She's known fear She's known bravery Her courage stems from battle scars Where she leads you follow She forges a path of her own And make it she must She is, the woman king.      @Sue.Ketter

As time passes And dreams remain unfulfilled Remember the cosmos flower She blooms long after others have Her stubborn determination Is her deep-rooted faith That one day  She too will bloom.     @Sue.Ketter

Listen to the silence You might learn something For it has much to say. Listen to the quiet You may gain something For its echoes resonate.     @Sue.Ketter

I read the book, Took a page, Threw it back tenfold.     @Sue.Ketter 

Some days she climbs mountains  Like they're hills, Fiercely moving forward toward the dream Always praying, Always hoping, Forever grateful. Greatness flows within her soul, The heart of a champion that she has Surpassing that glass ceiling Always praying, Always hoping,  Forever grateful.   @Sue.Ketter

So the sun sets  And a new day begins  The mood is sombre  Imbued with anticipation  Rain drops fall Like Eskimos we look  We've made night our friend  Ain't no monsters we pray  The sun rises  Signalling the end of day  We welcome the slumber  Nighty night we go.      @Sue.Ketter

To the wind She spoke of her wishes  And from the trees  She heard the whispers It is well my child!     @Sue.Ketter 

Some journeys  Were meant to be taken  Through winding paths  Deep within forests  Surrounded. Some journeys  Were meant to be taken  Through dusty roads In deserted towns  Alone.    @Sue.Ketter

When the storm raged I found strength in Him who gave me life When the ground caved in  He held my hand, lifted me up When the world came at me  His shield covered me And when my faith faltered By His Grace, I was redeemed His mercies endure forever.            @Sue.Ketter

Scary, isn't it This place  This risk-taking place Where you step off that comfort train Leave your attachments behind. This place,  This Anything Can Happen place Where you are excited and yet dreadful Acceptance is paramount In this place     @Sue.Ketter

There will be good days And there will be bad days May we learn to live In the in-between Where stars shine The moon's bright. Where nothing happens And all is silent. May we revel in the quietness And be alive In the in-between.        @Sue.Ketter

Time flew by Seasons changed, With storms, paths cleared, With the sun came relief. Dreamt new dreams, though old ones remain The moments in memory, The culmination of all, Conforming to thine self, Remembering who you are!                @Sue.Ketter

Oh How we drown Under the weight Of words unspoken.    @Sue.Ketter

For one moment, Just a single moment, The music played, Like it would never end, Sweet, sensual, and soothing, Yet so powerful. For one moment, Just a single moment, Her heart stopped She couldn't breathe, Felt like forever, Yet so little a time. For one moment, Just a single moment, The moon and the sun Shone brighter, The light so illuminating, Yet so subtle. For one moment, Just a single moment, The earth stood still, For the lovers, It was forever Yet just a short time. For one moment, For that single moment, She believed, That love exists for everyone, To hold and to cherish, Yet be held and be cherished.         @Sue.Ketter

Like a classic beat, Are you in my heart, Forever in reach, The memory so neat, Never to be forgotten. Like the setting sun, Is the beauty of you, The mere actions, A combination of which Can never be forgotten. Like a soaring eagle, Was your will by me, The wishes untold, But always there, Never to be forgotten. Like the morning star, Were your smiling eyes, The happiness shared, Within and without, Never to be forgotten. Like a natural reserve,   Is our friendship, Whatever happens, Gladness is mine, I have a friend like YOU. @Sue.Ketter